caught in the middle (part 2)

with the vss going around, and all my boss has got to offer me, i am caught in the middle again... many people had many opinion... but the one opinion i needed the most from the person that mattered the most, has not come...

there are people who told me to take vss, get hold of the money, and then trust god with the rest... there are people who calculated the odds and told me to take the offer to go to india and then after the completion of the project, it will be easier to get another job, and the situation will be better...

i have had plenty chat sessions with many people about this, and the best one was with max... i was chatting with him, and he calculated the odds... and then he said, afterall only one year in india, it can't be that bad... one year is a very short time, given the way i work, i won't even realise that the time has gone... and i said... i may die within the one year too rite?

he reprimanded me for saying such things... like usual, the sweet and nice max... he cared... and then i asked, would you cry if i die? he said he will be very sad... but he is not sure if he would cry... and then i asked him, would you miss me? he said, "i don't want anything bad to happen to you"...

and then i put the question as my personal message on msn... jaxe was really concerned, the moment he came online, he said "jiejie don't die"... it's funny, for a guy who never met me... for a guy who don't even know if i am really real... could care... and people who know me personally, are not even bothered...