what happened to me?

i wonder if you notice, i have been offline for ages... and when i say offline, i meant offline... i hardly come online anymore, not blogging, not chatting, and not even gaming...

i must say that all these was a little hard for me when i decided to stop, but after sometime, well, it all fall into place...

these days, i come to work, and then go home, and then watch some tv, online for a very short time, just to check emails, and then go to bed, and repeat all that... life is kinda bored, but stable...

like usual, i am working hard... been working too hard, have no life still... except i have found this new craze, i am crazy over korean and taiwanese drama... i even stayed up to 4 in the morning just watching taiwanese drama... well, yeah, it only takes me about 5 nites to finish a drama of 28 episodes...

the other thing i am crazy about is hana yori dango... yeah, started from boys over flowers (a korean drama, the leads are hot!) and then i started reading the manga online, and soon after, i was watching down with love (a taiwanese drama, lead actor is jerry yan, which is kinda hot too) and now i am watching meteor garden (a story based on hana yori dango)... well, 1st i thought jerry was hot, so i tried to search for the other shows that he starred in, which leads me to meteor garden, the show that took him to stardom, how can i miss that, and since it's related to the same story as boys over flowers, and hana yori dango, i thought i should never ever miss it - see how the things connect now... after watching the taiwanese and korean version, i must say that the korean version is way better... but it's unfair for me to draw such comparison since, the taiwanese version was like a decade old already... well, a lot happens in a decade... conclusion is hana yori dango is a good manga... almost 20 years from the date of 1st publication, and people are still watching... way to go kamio yoko!!! (i think that's the name of the creator)

other than that, i am been seriously considering retirement... 10 years of working hard has really taken me down... i realise that after working so hard for so long, it's like making me crazy, i guess this is the time for me to say enuff is enuff... only problem is, last week, another company head hunted me down for a job... and like usual, i am tempted to take up the new job, but it's a korean company, and i am not sure if i have the energy to be working for koreans, you know how they are, they work non-stop...

i was chatting with serena earlier today, and she has already submitted her resignation, which, makes me wanna submit mine too... ah i should wait for another month, as planned, but urghh...

when i 1st decided that i wanna quit my job, i was kinda worried about things, that i wouldn't be able to get along, you know, loans and expenses... and then there is another big factor, MOM!!! but last week, i told her about my intentions... she was amazingly very supportive, she even said, if you are not happy working, might as well quit, otherwise if you breakdown, it will be worst... i was not expecting that she said that... i was expecting that she will say that, why not look for alternatives 1st... looks like she notice the kind of bad condition i am in these days... so it's firm then, i am quitting my job, question is when, when do i finally have the courage to throw the letter? initially i was planning for june, so that i have a full 10 years, but now, i am hoping that i can do it next week... urghhh... my head hurts!